my...feelings...

ok...i was chatting with akram n i asked him what i shall blog abt. i mean i noe it is the most stupid Q to ask cos u noe it is MY blog n i ask others what to write in it! but nvm....it has been so long since i blogged properly! n nth much has happened in life that interesting to blog abt....but maybe i should just let out my feelings...he said. so here i m...(i shall start on a new para cos i just want to*wateva*)

u noe i have been waiting. (maybe it is not ur fault cos i dun expect u to noe!)
for so long i started to worry that something went wrong!
but i was so relieved when a gd time came...
cos i knew nth was wrong.
but that only meant sth WAS wrong afterall!
never uttering a word u just left me!
i still dont understand what on earth my mistake is!
i will noe oni if u tell me yea!
n this time i din care if i irritated u.
cos u have no reason to be irritated with me!!
n as far as my memory knows...i did not hurt u.
U DID!!
all i wanted was to hear a hi from u
i never knew i din deserve that!
i never knew i was so cheap to u!
afterall who am i in ur life eh?
just a piece of paper u use, crush n throw!
i m so confused!
n i wont be surprised even if i get a shuddap!
but nt even that!
oh what a friend u r!

okok nvm....that was NOT a poem by the way! mind u! well....today almost 80 ppl late sia!! had to stand there n get down all their particulars! tiring. but that is my duty n i will never hesitate to say that it is my fav activity of the day...everyday! i din like lessons today...geog, bio, maths, eng, tamil. none! somehow or another i feel like i m left out. totally left out. akram said i m short tempered...but no. he said i m impatient cos i m irritated by ppl coming late all the time...but no. i m just so....doomed. i dunno y i dun seem to like sch nowadays! but this is the time i m supposed to love sch. rite now...i have to concentrate on studies....get atmost...a 13 for my o's. i know i can do it. but i dunno if i wil.

uyir vida sonnaal uyir vidukidren...unai vida sonnaal unai vida maaten!