frustrations of a robot!

tell me...am i a robot??? no, really! am i???? no rite! then why do my teachers like to make me suffer and do everything for them everytime! i noe if i do what they say...it is gonna benefit me but....i think it is a lot too much! within the first 3 mths of the yr...i wld have attended SEVEN competitions! oh wateva crap! they think i dun have my own stuff to do! they think tamil is the only subject i take. they think i can manage everything cos i m so gd at it. they think juz b'cs i am gd in my studies i can afford to miss my cca practices. they think juz b'cos i take an xtra subj...i m a pro at managing my time!!!! oh wateva crap again! lk ppl! i m oni a 14 yr old! i m nt some professor or sth! i m nt a robot obviously! unless of cos i LOOK like one! really! it is so stupid the way they treat me! juz bcos i can sing n juz becos they THINK i can write they send me for all that stuff! they never ask me i if m interested! they never ask me if i have anth else on that day! they never ask the rest of the class whether they are interested! oh wateva crap AGAIN!!!! really...i dun understand wat this is all abt! i dun undserstand wat they are up to! like today! i was actually supposed to go for singing classes on sat mornins rite! but it juz somehow ended up that u noe...the scrabble comp wkshp n the debate wkshp n my singing lessons clash!!! oh wateva crap! i nearly died thinkin of which one to attend!!! i was tole by my cher to attend the debatestuff in queensway!!!!!!!!! queensway u noe!!!! n i tole her i have lessons! u noe...i was supposed to have my practical test today!!! but i was like ok lah i shall nt go cos my cher say i m the leader n so i have to go for the wkshp! i agreed rite! so everyth was settled! but then...today last min then...juz as i was abt to leave from sch to queensway...my scrabble cher come n force me to go for the scrabble wkshp cos i m the leader for my team osos!!!!! oh wateva crap! n i tole her i have to go now!!!! but she din let me go!!! she ended up calling my debate cher n tole her i will be late for the debate stuff cos i will be attending the scrabble stuff first!!! oh wateva crap! then i went for the scrabble thingy n then oni my other cher call n say i no need to go for the debate stuff! oh hw pissed off i was n still am rite nw!!!! i wld have rather attended my test today! i mean i really m nt a robot alrite! u ppl send my names for competitions w/o askin me! u ppl wont tell me the details...where...when....what all properly oso! u ppl juz simply put me as the leader for nonsense stuff! i mean...i noe lah....it is all cos u noe i can do it! cos i have the ability n strength! yes i do! n i m more than happy u trust n give me a chance! but maybe u noe u are a bit too fast for me! tooo fast! i need some time aiight! time! i m still having problems adapting to the changes arnd me this yr! y r u forcin n rushin me!! y?? y??? i still need to understand t.lit, a maths, chem, chers, friends n soooo many other stuff. i m nt a computerized robot to stuff evryth into my brain at a time!!! alll at a time! no! i need time! i m like so stressed up cos of the competitions n all the tests n CAs comin up! n cos u send me for competitions so often...i am gonna have to miss my choir practices so often! so so often! juz as i m abt to fit into the grp with all my frenz n chers in choir...u r drifting me apart from them faster than hw fast i managed to bond with them! u noe i love my choir...n it reallly irritates me if i have no choice but to miss my choir practices for sth else i m nt interested in! oh wateva crap again! cos of all these stuff i always brkdwn so easily! i have weakened in juz a few wks! i hate to cry myself to slp aiight!! i hate it! n oni wen i want sm1 to talk, to hug....i see no one! oh wateva shit! really i feel like giving up!!!! but i dun think it is worth giving up! nor is it worth fighting any longer! death then hell!

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My Baby

isn't it amazing how things change in this world so fast and unexpectedly!
sometimes these changes feel good!
but then....on the other hand...
we tend to miss them
and be unable to get them back.
things that we love so much!
things that i will always love so much!

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back...with somethin!

aiight! it has been reli long since i blogged again! sry ppl! juz din have the mood to blog lah! but here i m again! back! okok....today ah....the voices in the garden went to ponggol park for a team building activity cum outing! it was fun man! it reli was! i had such a blardy grt time with all my frenz! we rock dun we! WE DO!!!! woohoo....we played a game n had a gd time getting all dirty n muddy n wet in the rain! foo! damn tired noe! but wat is fun w/o some work eh?? haha! then i discovered that my angel has been miss koh!!! oh how lucky i m! now now....i reli have to thank her for the neckie she gt me! so luvley! so so luvley! the pendant is a treble clef(i think)!! haha! i will be ore than proud to wear it n show i love muzik!!!!!! :D thx thx thx a million times! n i hope gladys likes my card! i hope i hope! well....here are some pics i took aft the 'hunt' at the park! take a lk!...... the family...full attendance seh! the pond...or maybe the park??the park...or maybe the pond??the fellow at the only cafe at the park...us outside Bliss...the cafe aft the hunt!my nadiah the president!me lah....i sing song by the tree one...muahahaha!my $4.50 chocolate milkshake from Blissamirah n nadiah....the twosamaria the sweetie with the twome n nadiah....sry lah...quite lame!me...oh so lovelynadiah...amirah...selly!i like these...so i gt em!the circle of choristers!miss koh!hw many times m i to tell u!! she is nadiah! muahahaha!mine

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