somewhereINmyVISION

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Alphabets!

THE LETTER 'A'
Are you Available?- Yes I am
What is your Age?- 16
What Annoys you?- Unpleasant noise

THE LETTER 'B'
Do you live in a Big house?- Nope
When is your Birthday?- 20th May
Who is your Best friend?-I have two

THE LETTER 'C'
What's your favorite Chocolate?- CadburyDairy Milk
Who's your Crush?- Who??
When was the last time you Cried?- Two days ago

THE LETTER 'D'
Do you Daydream?- A lot
What's your favorite kind of Dog?- Maltese, Pomeranian, Shih-tzu, All kinds of terriers! Oh! I just love dogs!
What Day of the week is it?- Saturday

THE LETTER 'E'
Have you ever been in the emergency room?- Yes. Once.
Did you have a crush dat starts with letter E?- Emeline!! Haha! Kidding! Nope.

THE LETTER 'F'
Favorite Flower?- Roses

THE LETTER 'G'
Do you chew Gum?- Nope
Are you a Giver or a taker?- Both I suppose. More of a taker, though.

THE LETTER 'H'
What's your Height?- 170cm
what color is your Hair?- Black

THE LETTER 'I'
What's your favorite Ice cream?- Ben & Jerry's!!
Have you ever Ice skated?- Never
Do you play an Instrument?- Sadly, no. Always wanted to. The piano.

THE LETTER 'J'
What's your favorite Jelly bean?- I don't like jelly beans
Have you ever heard a really hilarious Joke?-Many
Do you wear Jewelry?- Yeah

THE LETTER 'K'
Who do you want to Kill?- i dont want to kill anyone. Don't have the rights to, do I?
Do you want Kids?- Of course I do!!
Which Kindergarten did u go to?- Braddel Heights PAP Kindergarten

THE LETTER 'M'
Whats your favorite Movie?- Nothing in particular
Do you still watch disney Movies?- Only when I do
Do you like Mangoes?- Somewhat

THE LETTER 'N'
Do you have a Nickname?- Yes
What's your favorite Number?- 7
Do you prefer Night over day?- No

THE LETTER 'O'
Whats your One wish?- To fulfil all of my dreams. Only for the better

THE LETTER 'P'
What one fear are you most Paranoid about?-Being lonely
What's a Personality trait you look for in the opposite sex you like?- Intelligence & Openness

THE LETTER 'Q'
Are you Quick to judge people?- It really depends

THE LETTER 'R'
Do you watch Reality tv?- yes

THE LETTER 'S'
Do you prefer sun or rain?- Sun
Do you like Snow?-very much! Only on t.v though

THE LETTER 'T'
What Time is it?- 1.50 am
What time did you wake up?- Yet to sleep

THE LETTER 'V'
Whats the worst veggie?- Those green leaf ones!
Where do you want to go on Vacation?-Anywhere!

THE LETTER 'W'
What's your Worst habit?- Biting nails and lips!!! OH NO!

THE LETTER 'X'
Have you ever had an X-ray?- Yeah
Do you own a xylophone?- Nope

THE LETTER 'Y'
Do you like the color yellow?- Well, I dont love it! That's for sure.
What Year were you born in?- 1991
Whats one thing you Yearn for?- Perfect music and a perfect voice forever.

TH E LETTER 'Z'
Whats your Zodiac sign?- Taurus
Do you believe in the zodiac?- Not that much.

I'm in love!

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Just.

Maybe, just maybe, I am not as happy as I thought I am.

I hate it when this feeling comes.

It makes me feel so empty.

So lonely.

So upset.

So regretful.

Like I miss something when I know I don't.

It makes me so agitated.

And I will want to think only negatively.

I start to hate myself when this is so.

I start to think that maybe I am missing out on everything that is mine.

Mine and only mine.

Why am I like this?

I hate my hair.

I hate my nose.

I hate my tummy.

I hate my thighs.

I hate my arms.

But, then again, I don't.

I love who I am.

Or do I?

I love my eyes.

I love my smile.

I love my ass.

I love my heart.

I love my soul.

I love myself.

Or do I?

Maybe, I should just shut up and sleep.

Maybe, I am just tired.

But, no.

I have started doing things I don't like.

I have started going against my will all the time now.

And so, it ends at me hating myself for torturing myself like this.

Why do I live?

Who do I live for?

Myself or you?

I am not a perfect woman.

I will never be.

I don't want to be.

I like having imperfections.

But, not like this.

Stop telling me what you like and what you don't.

Because, I have enough to know.

It has taken me ages to figure out my complicated self only this much.

And I have, but, a long way to go.

So, maybe, I should be just left alone.

Let me do it before I lose myself again.

Soon.

Very soon.

I was happy.

But, now it just hit me hard.

I am not happy.

People I thought loved me, don't.

People I thought wanted me, dont.

People I thought needed me, don't.

I thought I was in love.

With something no one could ever guess.

It was my world.

It still is.

But, I no more feel that same adrenaline rush that I felt the first time or so.

Why?

Maybe I am just forgetting who I really am.

Is that it?

Is that the answer to my confusion?

Am I forgetting who I am?

Am I beginning to pretend I am someone.

Everyone, but me?

Maybe I should just sleep.

Sleep my life away.

Because, surely, this will not be the last time.

And the next time it comes, I might think of killing myself.

Then, maybe I will fail in that too.

And then, I will lie in bed all my life.

Sucking away family's money for medical bills.

Maybe I am just tired.

Maybe I should just sleep.

And I can never be sure.

But, why does everything have to end with questions?

I feel, maybe I should just get myself pregnant.

I look like I am.

So why not just be it.

Right?

Then, I will enjoy my pregnancy to the fullest.

Splurge on ice-cream and chocolate.

And on clothes that fit only because they are maternity dresses.

And then I'll drag my baby in my belly along to shop for huge sweet earrings.

I will doll up before sleep.

Then, I will buy new shoes that fit only because they are made for obese people with fat feet.

And I will wear one of those flowing pink dresses with a baby-blue bow just under the breasts.

With a pair of matching snow-flake earrings.

With pretty make-up.

With nice comfortable heels.

Then, let me walk down my street like a swan.

Alone.

On a romantic silent night.

While the stars stare at me.

Proud to have been who I was all this while.

I will find a bench in the park.

And sit there with my baby.

And then with tears in my eyes, I will sing.

I will just sing.

Just sing.

Sing.

And never wake up.

Sweet.

I'm in love.

Monday, December 10, 2007

I am happy! Very much!

Many reasons for that, trust me!

1) Chandiramogan's daughter's naming ceremony!

2) Planet Galatta II Roadshow Performance

Ok...maybe not that many. But, still, enough to keep me happy for a month!

Weeee!! Firstly, I was super delighted when Chandiramogan had sent me an SMS inviting me to his daughter's naming ceremony! I've always wanted to see his daughter since I have never had the chance before! It was held on 1 Dec (Sat) at the Bayview Hotel! Somewhere near Orchard. and I decided to bring Priya along. She's the best person who could ever follow me to his function! And, when we went there, we spent a little time searching for the hotel. Somehow, we found our way. Anf when we did reach there, we practically didn't see anyone! The hall was still kind of empty. Later, the crowd started coming in. Then, came our hero with his wife and kid! Haha! He seemed to be sooo busy that he took almost half an hour to notice us! Haha! Poor him! We didn't really get to admire and play with the baby. Oh! Her name is NERANGIENA Chandiramogan. Cute cute. After a while, the PG crew came and joined us. Then, we had dinner together and left at about 10.30. But, we were delayed because we started taking stupid photos with people around us! Haha!! Well, overall, I had a great time! Slacking with Priya and meeting up with Chandiramogan after some time! And guess what!!! We both actually presented the baby with DIAPERS!!! What a useful gift, huh? And a card that I made. Photos now!!

The card

The inside

Touching up in the toilet! Haha!

Priya!

The event

With Chan and his lovely family

With the Planet Galatta crew

The aftermath!

Us!

Aren't we just so lovable

At the roads of Orchard

HAHAHAHA!

Me!!

And thennnn... the next day, Priya and I had to meet again for this Roadshow that Planet Galatta II was holding as a preview to their Album CD launch. I'm sorry to say, but, the event was a little pathetic. Because, PG had only 4 total singers and 1 dance group for the whole event that lasted just slightly more than half an hour. But, nevertheless, I had a lot of fun there. One reason, because, Priya was there to share my insanity. And second, because, I met VIGNESH!! But, stupidly didn't grab a photo with him! Ah! Nevermind! Small matter. Well, this roadshow definitely did not attract that much of a crowd as it was held in one end of Singapore. Well, specifically, at Bukit Panjang, just opposite Chandiramogan's house. Yes yes. So not many people came. I sang Thoodhu Varuma. Pratically no one was listening ok! And like Vig was saying, they were all dead! Super dead!! Vig and Priya sang En Enakku. Ebi was there too. He sang Jalsa Pannungadaa. Hah! Then, after the roadshow ended, right, we were literally chased away man!! Huh!! So, Priya and I had nowhere to go. We were just walking about aimlessly when we saw.... CHANDIRAMOGAN! With his wife and RashidKumar. Haha! So we joined them in watching the show that was held next. At the same place. Vasantha li 2007. It was sooo boring ok! But we had a fun time. joking and talking all sorts of nonsense. Chan didn't bring his baby along, though. And you know, they had this segment where older Indian women actually came in sarees to do some aerobic dance. And guess what his wife told us. "Just imgaine them cominh in tights outfit instead of sarees. That would be better, wouldn't it?" Hahahaha! And Chan added on to suggest the brilliant color combination of bright pink and black! OOh! sexy mamas!! Haha! Then we left the place early, before the show eneded! Photos now!!

Make-up in the process