Let me speak my mind!

I have been thinking about this for some time.
I am just a little disturbed.
How so unfair this world can get.
Let me get to the point.
I have to get this burden off my chest.
Sometimes truth hurts.
Doesn't it?
Badly.
Really badly.
Really, really badly.
But, you have to face it.
So do I.

I have a friend.
His name is Abdul Jahar.
He should be seventeen this year.
Met him in primary school.
In my last year only, though.
If only I had met him earlier.
He joined the dance club a few months before our graduation.
He dances pretty well!
I like!
Such a great dancer, he was.
We had good times together as a group.
Me, him, our friends and Ms Malar.
Best of times, in fact!
He was a great fellow!
A very great friend!
Wonderful personality.
Superb talents.
Simply Amazing.

I had always loved dance rehearsals.
Beause of these people.
He was one of them.
Rehearsals simply made me jump in delight.
I enjoyed myself to death.
With them.
He was one of them.
Our batch seemed to be the best of all times!
Because of these people.
He was one of them.
We did our best.
And the day we had been waiting for had come.
Unfortunately.
It was not only the day to show our talent.
And to showcase our best.
But, it was also the day to part.
With all of them.
He was one of them.

School term ended.
I was so lost.
I missed rehearsals.
I missed my teachers.
I missed those days.
I missed my friends.
All of them.
He was one of them.
Unfortunately.

Months passed.
I grew older.
I have to admit.
There were times I completely forgot about them.
He was one of them.
But, there were times I always thought about them.
And so badly wanted to meet again!
He was one of them.

Thirty- three months passed.
I was in Sec 3.
There was no word from him at all.
Until my teacher told me the news.

As I sat in class,

Teacher: Which primary school are you from?
Me: Yangzheng primary school. Why do you ask, sir?
Teacher: Did you know a boy named...ummm....Abdul Jafar?
Me: Oh. Do you mean...Abdul Jahar?
Teacher: Ah! Yes! Yes! He dances really well! Did you know him?
Me: Yes! I did! He was in the dance club with me!
Teacher: Ok...Do you know what happened to him? He is in India right now.
Me: India? But why? I thought he was studying in a secondary school here?
Teacher: Yes, he was. But it seems his kidneys......failed. Both.
Me: ___________*OH MY GOD!*__________
Teacher: So, he went back to India to get a transplant. It seems he could not get a donor here.
Me: Oh! Ok! But......

And then, what else?
Lesson had to go on.
Too bad.
The world couldn't be stopping just for me.
To have a minute to silently cry for a friend.
A very dear friend.
A very very dear friend.
Could it?
No!

No wonder I had no news from him.
But, I was angry.
With everyone who knew.
And didn't tell me before.
I was angry with him.
For not telling any of us.

Does he deserve this?
No.
He was such a great one.
No.
He was such a gem.
A great mixture of
politeness,
respect,
talent,
looks,
brains,
character,
and everything else you could think of.
Wow!
Salute, my friend!
Salute!

Now, he is not here with me.
I don't even know if he will be coming back.
I hope he does.
Atleast then, I will have the chance to tell him.
Tell him how much I appreciate him.
How much I missed him.


Abdul, I have something for you.
A flower that means so much.

























I hate to end with a question.
But, in this case, I have to.
I have no choice.
Not one.
I will wait.
For an answer.


Some things affect you too much.
Too much, even positively, that they only end up hurting you.
Did you realise that?






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B for Bored

P for Photos!

Alright. I am bored. And so it seems! I was chatting with Shena and was talking to Inthu on the phone. But, Inthu hung up and Shena disappeared. So I am all alone, yet again! I want to do something! But, surely not homework! So here I am! Hehe! Let's BLOG!! But, as much as I want to blog, I am lazy to type!! So, I am going to, instead, post photographs that I like! Here goes!!

Sisters

Street in India

Joy

Friendship

Beauty of Art

Don't stare!

A rose

Love

Family

You like me, I like you!

Dad and I

Sorry, Kishen! He's too cute to resist!

Passion!

More to come! Watch this space!

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Muffins

I love muffins!! Hehe! Well, my sister went down to the store to grab some stuff for baking muffins. Note this point!! CHOCOLATE CHIP MUFFINS! Me, being the chocolate freak, decided to help her out. Well, you see! I simply love chocolates! So you want to get something done by me, get me a bar of that! Ah! Exaggeration! Her first try, though, didn't at all turn out well. Haha! Nevermind, ah! But her second try was a bloody success!! Weeee! It was fine. Soft and nice. So, next up, it is my turn! You can have your muffin and eat it too!!

This is no ordinary oven! It has muffins inside !

In the oven

AHHH! Muffins!

Sis with muffins

Waiting to cool

Just look at them, man!

You see the chocolate chips? **drips saliva**

On a totally random note,

I so bloody love these people!!

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The Good Ole' Days

I loved today! So fun. But, it only brings back superb memories that lead to painful incidents in the present. I miss my teachers. I miss my friends even more. One of them who really does not deserve what he is going through! Nevermind.

Well, I went to Yangzheng Pri Sch today. To help my ex dance teacher Ms Malar with the kid's dressing up and stuff. I have been doing that for like 3 years since. It is one day in the year I really enjoy and get a chance to catch up with old friends and ex teachers. I still think my batch's performance was the best! Cool people, Cool dance, Cool talents, Best friendships!!! Miss you like hell, GUYS!!!! Well, Ms Malar was kind of busy. So Loshini and I just helped her put on make-up for the dancers. It was fun. Then after their performance, we just idled around. Talking about the old days and happenings. Haiz!

Yep. I saw Mdm Asan! Haha!! And a few other teachers who, surprisingly, remember my name!! Haha! Love you, people! Sadly, I didn't see Mr Ravi anywhere in the school. Probably he has left the school or something? Then, Ms Malar said we could meet one day outside for a gathering. Woooo! Can't wait for that! It is going to be bloody fun, I assure you! Haha! Ahhhhh. It was beautiful! Thank God i didn't cry! No lah! I just really really miss those days! You wouldn't understand unless you were with me. Fun! Fun! Fun!

Oh ya!! I met this really handsome guy! Sathish!! Ahhh! We became very good friends and had a good time taking photos with each other. Cute fellow! Hope we meet again, Sathish!!

Loshini and I

The dancers ( SYF-Silver winners!!)

Me

The New Gang!!

Sathish!!!!

Sathish and I

Another cute guy!

Us again

Ms Malar ( she's too busy!)

Ahhh! Too Cute!

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Shena

Shena.
A really sexy babe!
Crazy woman!
And I mean CRAZY!
When she is bored and online,

I have to entertain her by updating my blog.
I just did a whole chunk yesterday.
See it for yourself!
Now,

there you go, lady!
Something just for you!

Isn't she cute?

Pretty eh!

That's why, I like her so much!

She is such an *angel*(read as lovely monster).

I am so greatful for having gotten to know her.

We seriously do nonsense together!

But, when it comes to work, we are straight!

But when it comes to songs, we go ga-ga!!

Love you, sexay!

Now, since I am here to blog, I was thinking, why not just put up something for the day. There is this poem (fine! it is not a poem! just words put together, alright!) I wrote a pretty long time back. For fun! Hehe! I was waiting for a good time to put it up. But, that time does not seem to arrive any sooner. So, here you go, people!

I love you, yes I do
But what should I do?

You are my breath
Don’t take it away
You are my sun
Don’t take it away
You are my heartbeat
Don’t take it away
You are my eyes
Don’t take them away
You are my bones
Don’t take them away
You are my blood
Don’t take it away
You are my nerves
Don’t take them away
You are my world
Don’t take it away

You are my life
You are my love
You are my all

I breathe your breath
I smell your smell
I hear your sound
I see your sight
I feel your touch
I like your likes
I live your life


You are my life
You are my love
You are my all

I respect you
I look up to you
I admire you
I adore you
I depend on you

I wish you well
I wish you best
I wish you had never
Started that habit
I am happy now
You have given it a thought

You are my life
You are my love
You are my all

I love you, yes I do
But, what should I do?

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Just a little fun!

I'm loViN It!!

Your Expression Number is 11

You tend to be associated with idealistic concepts and spiritual issues.You have high potentials that are somewhat difficult to live up to.You have very strong intuition and you can be a bit psychic at times. Highly inspirational, you can lead merely by your own example.You have an inborn inner strength and awareness that helps you advise others.Although you have what it takes for a successful career, you belong outside the business world. Overly sensitive and temperamental, you tend to have a lot of nervous tension.You dream a lot, so much so that you may be more of a dreamer than a doer.Fantasy and reality tend to get intermingled for you, and that leads to impracticality.

What's" Your Expression Number?

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced. Overall, your true self is reserved and logical. With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situation, you seem like you're oblivious to the stress.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

You Are 40% Left Brained, 60% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

You Communicate With Your Ears

You love conversations, both as a listener and a talker.What people say is important to you, and you're often most affected by words, not actions.You love to hear complements from others. And when you're upset, you often talk to yourself.Music is very important to you. It's difficult to find you without your iPod.

How Do You Communicate?

You Are 18 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

ok ppl! this is cool! look! i m oni 15 alrights!!!! woohoo!

You Are Lightning

Beautiful yet dangerousPeople will stop and watch you when you appearEven though you're capable of random violence You are best known for: your power Your dominant state: performing

What Type of Weather Are You?

You Will Die at Age 64

You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...And how you'll die as well.

What Age Will You Die?

You Are Apple Pie

You're the perfect combo of comforting and traditional Those who like you crave security

What Kind of Pie Are You?

Your Brain is 60% Female, 40% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and femaleYou are both sensitive and savvyRational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headedBut you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

You Are 33% Angry

You're occasionally angry, but it's really not an issue.While you may give in to your temper once and a while, you're pretty mellow.And as long as your anger doesn't effect your relationships, then it's probably in check.You know that anger is a bad habit - and you don't engage in it often.

How Angry Are You?

You Are a Powdered Devil's Food Donut

A total sweetheart on the outside, you love to fool people with your innocent image.On the inside you're a little darker, richer, and more complex.You're a hedonist who demands more than one pleasure at a time.Decadent and daring, you test the limits of human indulgence.

What Donut Are You?

You Are 50% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird...But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

Your Career Type: Social

You are helpful, friendly, and trustworthy.Your talents lie in teaching, nursing, giving information, and solving social problems. You would make an excellent: Counselor - Dental Hygienist - LibrarianNurse - Parole Officer - Personal TrainerPhysical Therapist - Social Worker - Teacher The worst career options for your are realistic careers, like truck driver or farmer.

What's" Your Ideal Career?

ok! just this last one alright! this is too many already! go babe!

Your Blog Should Be Blue

Your blog is a peaceful, calming force in the blogosphere.You tend to avoid conflict - you're more likely to share than rant.From your social causes to cute pet photos, your life is a (mostly) open book.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

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Lightsticks!

Beautiful! Colourful! Full of joy and excitement! What else could they be, but for my wonderful coloured lightsticks? Haha! Alright. My sister, somehow or another, manged to get some lightstick home. For fun! I got a few! And blue was my favourite! I went crazy enough to snap photos of myself with them. Memories! Haha!

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