Changes

Yes, I need changes in my life. Physical. Emotional. What else? Well, yeah. Anyway, I have been going through some things with family and all recently. And I tend to get really stressed out becauseof them. I don't think it's worth it, right. And I don't wanna be the kind who holds grudges against my family. That's totally dumb.

Anyway, I feel a little irritated. So, I'm outta here. I have been thinking of writing on racial discrimination, passion and a few other thoughts. But, I feel I really need a break now. Not like I have been here day and night. But, hey...

Ahmad's workouts haven't been my best. I haven't been disciplined.

Can't wait for 1st April. I wanna start anew. I hope I will. I know I can.

...Love me...

Wishing all my feeling was gone

Let us dance
Drowning me in a trance
Grab me here
And caress me there

Let me feel you
Please, let me just embrace you
Taste you here
And kiss you right there

For you know for sure
I will love you
Forever
And ever and ever

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Ooookay people. Now, THAT was a little bad I feel. It didn't come out as passionate as I'd wanted it to. But hey, I really am not the poetic kind and my vocab is so super weak. Haha. So yeah. That was just one of my feeble attempts due to the lack of inspiration. No need to appreciate that one.

But you know, I am in love for real now. With this man who just swept me off my feet. I know I'm behind time, far far behind time. This man is as dark as the night. Mature and deep and so delicious. Peaceful and loving and calm as the sea. Yet he has a million unpredictable sparks inside of him that make him all the more ... All the more unique and irresistible. What is the science and biology behind that voice I hear. The science behind all the soothing waves of his words and thoughts and the love that he spreads. Ohhhhh... My... SO SO SO utterly impressive. One of the best voices I've heard and learnt to treasure for good things never always last. =) Enjoy y'all.

Brian McKnight
~One Last Cry~




~~~***~~~
My shattered dreams and broken heart

Are mending on the shelf

I saw you holding hands

Standing close to someone else

Now I sit all alone

Wishing all my feeling was gone

I gave my best to you

Nothing for me to do

But have one last cry

One last cry

Before I leave it all behind

I gotta put you outta my mind this time

Stop living a lie

I guess I'm down to my last cry

I was here

You were there

Guess we never could agree

While the sun shines on you

I need some love to rain on me

Still I sit all alone

Wishing all my feeling was gone

Gotta get over you

Nothing for me to do

But have one last cry

One last cry

Before I leave it all behind

I gotta put you outta my mind this time

Stop living a lie

I know I gotta be strong

'Cause 'round me life goes on and on and on

And on

I'm gonna dry my eye

Right after I've made my

One last cry

One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you outta my mind

For the very last time
Been living a lie

I guess I'm down

I guess I'm down

I guess I'm down

To my last cry

~~~***~~~

But, God oh God. Why! Why did you sculpt me into a woman who loves voices and appreciates sounds and then leave me stuck here in this tiny island where no one truly understands me. I can't go here, I can't do that. I can't touch and feel the one I love. It's just sight and sound for me. And if that was meant to be, why make the sense of touch so important to the humankind? Why... This is too much to take.

Then again, I was supposed to write on the BIG O. But hey, I just HAD to put this up you know. I love the song. I love the voice. I love the pain in the song in the voice. Awww. Come, make love to me. Besides, I haven't yet felt the need and urge and inspiration to write about O just yet. I'll just wait.

Well, I think everyone should watch What's Got Love To Do With It (1993) if you haven't already. I just came across it a few days back and got to watch it today. Woweee! Hats off to Laurence Fishburne and Angela Bassett for that unmistakably splendid, flawless acting. It was simply amazing. Did they receive some award for it? No? Oh my god such cruelty! The scenes were so raw and true and definitely made me shift and my heart pound for Tina Turner. But nevertheless, I now agree and realise that Ike Turner was a musician himself and is the father of so many records that made fans jump outta their seats. Every man makes mistakes. Some just overdo it. God knows why. Let's all just embrace the good side of him like Tina Turner once did and appreciate the man for his awesome music shall we? But of course, being smart or talented or just being doesn't give anyone the right to abuse another. Be it a woman or child or a weaker man. And no. I am not going to talk about Gender Equal Rights now. Maybe some other day. =)

On the whole, you will eventually grow out of your own problems and confusion if you stay strong and keep fighting. Also, please please, just never forget to appreciate the true talents of others when you can. Such people never last too long. And I'm sure you know that too well by now.



p.s: I started Ahmad's workouts today!! More on that later! :D

Get out of my life!