Voices In The Garden Beach Party 2006

yesterday...was...i wld say...sweet! we had a grt time. the voices in the garden beach party was hell!
first we had the 3 of em buried......haha....! then mr goh had to leave... :0[ then ms koh gave out the souveneirs aft which we had food. yummy... sushi..otah...sausages...fried chicken...mee goreng...curry puff!!! omg! so much...so good!

then we started playing volleyball...soccer....obviously wet each other! haha...it was nice! never had a better time with them!
i juz snapped a few fotos with some ppl lah. forgot to bring ma cam!!! slap me someone! so juz gt a few fotos in ma fone. but i reli regretted like hell that day for 1 reason! not bringing extra clothes!!!!
wen i was wetting my feet while others were drenched...i juz wanted to sit in the water man! the water so soothin, the sand so massaging! ooohhhh....awesome!

me...

me...nadiah...amirah

me...marselly

me...sarah...june

them again...

me...titi

sarah and i

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***oh baby!

i juz wanna tell u

i love u,

forever!

u are my life,

if u havent realized it.

u complete me,

in case u din noe

how much u have influenced my life.

u make me smile,

u make me laugh,

u make me blush,

u make me jump up into the air,

when i see u dance!

i tell u again,

with the hope,

that one day wen u grow up,

u will read this,

that u are my sunshine.

i juz cant imagine,

my life without u!

i noe wat u have gone through.

exactly!

gone through.

by now u shld noe,

that u are strong,

strong enough to suffocate any idiotic pain,

and sail through like the wind!

i juz wanna tell u, baby,

life is not easy.

life is not as easy as it seems!

and that is how i live,

they live,

u will live.

i juz wanna thank u.

thank u till i die.

u make me cry,

wen i think of wat a great person u are,

what a great part of my life u are,

what a great teacher u are.

i juz wanna tell u,

u teach me how to smile,

u teach me how to forget all my problems

and enjoy life wen i am supposed to.

baby,

i ask u to do me a favour.

please,

never leave me,

never forget me!

cry!

cry all u want.

ask.

ask all u want.

for u will live life only once.

but i juz wanna tell u,

with tears in my eyes,

BABY, I THANK YOU!

Sharandeep Durai

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sweet....

my dad's milo...
is juz too sweet...
juz like him...
awwww...

my pt is...my dad actualli made me milo...that was so sweet. isnt that so sweet of him?

i love u dad!!

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a random entry...

can someone tell me why i m such a crazy idiot?!!

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him...

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i was telling her...

that maybe i get frustrated n give up easily because i feel like i am living my life for others. and now...coming to think about it...maybe it is true after all! why do i study and achieve to be big?? for the government. i dunno. whether i belong to myself. i dont seem to have any interest in anyth like before. even songs. studies. i feel like i m gonna flop my life very soon...very very very soon. i can't help being soo soo negative! i just cant!

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and the fifa world cup winner is....

well...well...Brazil! hehe! ok...ok... i so so wanted to watch the brazil vs croatia match this morn at 3!! i set alarm...slept infront of the tv...and did wake up juz 39 secs into the match! but my eye was tearing too badly. juz too badly to cont. and i was to sleepy anyway...i dozed off. but i am not gonna miss th erepeat telecast at 4.30 this eve! i've gotta watch it. confirm brazil won....but i still wanna watch it!

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As i was reading my sister's blog...

...i came across these. and in the end, i read and understood my sister actuali wants me to try it out as well! so nice of u! so here i go!

3 schools I went to:
1) PAP Braddel Heights Kindergarten
2) Yangzheng Primary School (where my dance thrived)
3) Serangoon Garden Secondary School

3 things in my handbag:
i as myself, do not carry a handbag. but if u reli must know what i carry with me...
1) my purse with transport essentials and money to spend
2) my handphone
3) my comb

3 things i do when i am stressed:
1) i cry (reason being...i can't achieve anything when i am stressed)
2) i sleep
3) i munch on junk while i use the computer

3 places i go to on a daily basis:
1) the toilet
2) the kitchen
3) like my sister suggested, msn messenger

3 favourite fruits:
1) cold crunchy red apple
2) cold canned peaches
3) cold rambutans stuffed with pineapple cubes ;D

3 names i go by:
1) Dharshini
2) Dash
3) Soothaatti (for those who do not understand, i think it is best left that way!)

3 of my favourite food:
1) fried carrot cake
2) rice with spicy fish curry
3) chicken rice

3 things i am wearing now:
1) my mom's dress
2) my pair of undergarments
3) my pair of ear studs
*note: these are really the only things i am wearing right now

Who is in the house with me? My family.

Who am i thinking of right now? My sister.

Who did i last talk to on the phone? Sharmini.

Who do i sit with during my 5th period in class? Sharmini.

Who was the last person i uttered the word 'love' to? Kishen.

Who do i wish i was with right now? Abdul Jahar.

Who gets onto my nerves most in school? No named person yet.

Where is my phone? In my room.

Where do i sleep? In my room.

Where is the place i took a ride to? Serangoon Central.

What was the last thing i ate? Cola candy.

What colour shirt am I wearing? I am wearing a dress. It is green anyway.

What is the closest item to me that is blue? My brother's uniform.

What do i like most about school? The way my friends and i crack our heads with Mathematics.

What is my favourite colour? Blue.

What do i wear most often, jeans or shorts? Jeans.

What was the last movie i watched? Dishyum (tamil).

When did i start school? 1996

When did i last go to the mall? Months ago... (!!)

When did i last burn something? Just today. (inscense sticks they were)

3 bloggers to do this:
1) Manokari
2) Sundram (who has not updated his blog for months)
3) Revathi

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check this out!

i m back from melaka! bt check this out first.
1. i had a hell of a time there!
2. i woke up at 2.30 today! cool eh!

i reli had a grt time there man! but i have forgotten most of the ppl as the last time i saw them was yrs back! its not like i have forgotten them lah. i do rmb....their names n faces...but u noe... i dun talk much now. cos they have also forgotten me! weird eh...

the engagagement went on well. managed to grab some fotos. they held it in their hse. aft which we all headed to the temple nearby to witness their registry of marriage. it was so simple. ppl go sit around a table in a small room at the back of the temple. they say sth n write sth n sign sth. then the bride n bridegroom are given separate pieces of certs!....haha! n then they all head back home.

but it was such pleasure meeting them all again. they are holding the wedding in dec it seems. in ipoh this time. the bridegroom's home. n i have decided long ago. i m going! no way m i gonna miss that man! i juz cant wait! i wanna go back now! neway...here are some of the fotos for ur viewing pleasure.

the bride

the bridegroom

one of the kolams(floor decos) made with coloured rice n flour

some of us

my m'sian cousins waiting to welcome ppl

my uncle from ipoh

the bride's dad breakin the coconut

the couple exchanging rings (dun mind the fella taking foto eh...)

the bride's parents, the couple, the groom's parents

my bro n i

dinnertime!

before our departure

anth uncle from ipoh

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1.2.3

my days have been bad. reli bad.

1.
ppl get irritated cos i get irritated with them for no reason.
like my mom.
i dunno y i get so irritated wen she is blur.
n especially wen she dusnt noe where she is heading.
she is old.
but i cant get that into my head n be patient with her.
i juz boil.
very often nowadays.
very.
for no good reason.
i hate myself.


2.
ppl.
he is so annoyed that i din go for practice on wed n wont be going later today.
he dusnt understand ppl.
she is right.
perfectly right.
but i hate to accept that as an excuse to accept him for who he is.
dunt u urself think he is crossing his limits by wanting to sack her.
juz cos she din come for practice in the morn.
wen she is only leaving in the evening.
come on lah ppl.
i expect u to noe better.
as a student urself, i bet u din enjoy work or sch during what they claim to be holidays.
and it is not abt whether we like it or not.
i noe we have to start practicing.
but this is too much alrite.
wen ppl leave the country, they need to prepare stuff.
and if they leave at night, that dusnt mean they will be perfectly free in the morning.
they will have some other stuff to pack.
or atleast some last duties to finish up before they leave.
and its not that.
give me a break man.
i need one.
a break.
u noe.
u r annoying me.
for the first time.
i dun wanna see ur face.
u juz make me feel so guilty for no fault of mine.
u r good at it arent u.
hurting ppl.
u call it high expectations.
i call it pure selfishness.
i hate u.


3.
a few days back.
i went to register for my i/c.
as i was waiting.
i saw this boy.
he is maybe 2 yrs old.
he is deaf.
i did feel sorry for him.
so young.
so innocent.
was it his fault.
no.
not at all.
he was wearing this hearing aid machine.
what i call obvious monsters.
poor him.
i saw him.
i admired him.
for how strong he was despite all that torture.
then i looked away.
my mum dint.
she stared and stared.
i dint like that.
she stared and stared.
i reli dint like that.
i feel it is rude.
staring at others' defects and making it too obvious.
imagine u had a pimple on ur nose.
and ppl.
everyone.
ppl staring at u everywhere u go.
but my mum.
i understand.
she felt pity for him.
but i still dint like the fact that she was staring and staring.
i knew deep inside me.
he wld become a great known man all over the world.
who cares if he is deaf.
he can walk, run, see, smell.
who at all cares if he is deaf.
he is unique.
he is a gem.
he will decide his life.
he will stand in his own two feet.
he will succeed.
still i thot.
he dint deserve that punishment.
that young seedling.
so much pain.
i hate god.


i wanted the world to hug me.
i felt so good wen it did, a few yrs back.
but as time passed, its grip tightened.
i started to choke.
it strangled me.
tighter.
tighter.
tighter.
tighter.
tighter.
i m suffocating.
tighter.
i m choking.
tighter.
tighter.
i m in pain.
tighter.
tighter.
tighter.
i m dying.
tighter.
dont save me.
tighter.
let me die.
tighter.
please.
let me die.

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